Hello People

2009-09-25T13:46:00.000-07:00

Those memories are still stuck in my head.

meet dave, bus no. 5 prank, every single time you want to challenge tobacco rolling.

Im sorry.
just cant stop wanting.

ahmad

2009-09-18T12:50:00.000-07:00

okay. i have to stop it.
what's the use. pardon the meltdown. it was shock plus everything else, too much to handle like a cup too full. :/
I am going to be mature about this. Afterall, im old enough to be :)
To be honest, after all the thinking Im kinda happy for anne and excited to see another good rel. ;)

okay on to other things.
today is mayweather vs marquez.
the boxing match of 09. Im a fan of mayweather and he is my favourite 'current' time boxer, even though he retired one or two years ago. Anyway, im a fan of his and first watched him n his ricky hatton match. Found him to be a very interesting boxer.defensive but not boring to watch. technical enough but even more tactical. :) i cant wtach the bout, its on PPV.
:(
i hope he wins. its his comeback btw.

tomorrow will be another sports night but i dont think ill be able to catch arsenal vs wigan. BY right, arsenal should be able to win, if they play right.that's all. i dont like the way manchester united play now.its kinda boring, they used to be fun to wtach even though i hate them. tomorrow will be their derby and chelsea against spurs, the biggest two matches this weekend.

raya is a day from now. to tell you the truth im kinda lazy. :/

ahmad
thankful.

ouhh and i promised a picture of ahpeng's ray,its up there.

2009-09-16T01:47:00.000-07:00

I want to disappear.I'll just shut up.
Im sorry I can't stomach this like a man.
Guess it was more to me than it ever was.

ahmad

2009-09-14T03:18:00.000-07:00

hello.im back.
arsenal lost, 4-2.
i dont know. felt they were outmuscled and outpaced by man city. i mean, look at the man city backline. Then look at the others.lucky robinho and tevez injured. Arsenal also, well as a whole i felt alot of individuals underperform. but oh well, next's wigan. eh but rosicky good sia.

ouh, and i dreamt of anne yesterday night. i think i thought so hard of her before i slept that i dreamt of her. It kinda sums everything up, i think. we were lying next to each other, talking shit talking rubbish, cracking jokes and other lots of crap. and then she told me she wanted to leave, and she left without waiting or saying goodbye.ouh well anne.

exams are coming up, tonight i will start heavy mugging. buti think its fucked up because malay homework is likebcurbhebcivbhevneiorvbeivbe. hell lot. how do you expect me to mug then?FUCK.

aniway, my blogger interface is fucked again so when it gets done ill post a picture of ah peng's ray hor?

ahmad

2009-09-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

Break out-Signs of Hope

Break out
Ignite the matches
TO EXPLODE
Break out
Let's not imagine
JUST LET GO
With our names engraved in stone
WE'LL ALL DIE ALONE

I had to FIGHT for what I have
Always taking chances always finding something more
WE ARE what we choose to be in life
Nothing is impossible, I can make it ON MY OWN

It's time to take risks or imagine A LIFE WITH REGRET

Don't you dare say to me;
"I never had the chance"
"It's always out of reach"
"Forget my dreams"
THIS IS OUR TIME
TO FEEL ALIVE
And live each day
Like the last of life.

finally i got it

ahmad

2009-08-30T03:35:00.000-07:00

FUCKING WATCH IT AGAIN! WHO'S THE BETTER TEAM?

gee i was fine yesterday but when i watched the highlights, Goddamnit, they deserve shit man man u.
And for a neutral and biased watcher, the referee is a complete pain in the ass who needs to be stripped into two down his throat.i sweat, then you sirloin it, smoke it, and then put bbq sauce and you serve it to a friendly herd of bloodthirsty hellhounds. HOLY WACKEN! look at arshavin fall in the box. i thought it was clean for the ball. but replays! i was like H8** Mo**** o* F8*cnericbeircbiwvcecmxlcbjcnewc. then i salute wenger for doing what he did, commentators say he plainly kicked the bottle down arsenal's flanks.

2009-08-28T10:22:00.000-07:00

Where's the gold?-50 lions

Some things still confuse me
those song could, never inspire me
your satisfied, by empty words
that could never, strangle this heart
blood stops cold in veins
chills the skin, like wintery rains
broken hearts, fake fucking pain
FUCK YOUR BROKEN HEART

Fuck

Some things still confuse me
those song could, never inspire me
your satisfied, by empty words
that could never, strangle this heart
blood stops cold in veins
chills the skin, like wintery rains
broken hearts, fake fucking pain

but were not giving up
kept it real FROM THE START
now your back, with the crowd
WITHOUT THE HEART

FUCK

your looks, tell it all in one
rose to the top,in a matter of months
the faster you rise,the faster you fall
and when your gone, we wont care at all
ABOUT YOU

understand? satirical on a certain culture. and this is why i love HC

Its not cool, at least i dont think it is. Its not a fad, not a cult for me. Its life. Isnt it? Its opinion, expression, ideas/ideologies. Its a medium of what you think and its where you write about society, about 'media', about politics and youth. Because there arent many places you can write whatever you want without people putting an eye on, or OB markers on. And the 'media'/controlled media is telling everyone what to think. So if you cant express yourselves, and your opinions are controlled/influenced, then isnt it safe to say you're not alive? Living, there's a reason God gave you brains and the least you could do with them is think for yourselves. you don't need someone to tell you and give you opinions on something. And that is what Hc does for me, it makes me feel alive.

and no, its not tough guy antics/ethics, i dont carry them at all. And its not the whole hc-kid thing. In fact, if you guys know me, i listen to RnB, Metal,Pop everything goes, as long as its good to my ears. :)

so when a group of people(being the minority), having similar ideas, fighting against controlled and favoured conformity and refusing to give in to societal,political requests get together to see a show, you'll see a group of people, not huge but rather very small, live. Stagedives,Pits,Dances are just enjoyment. But what goes on and feeds this everlasting flame, is the heart, the ones alive. :)

ahmad

2009-08-28T09:52:00.000-07:00

wooo back, finally.

ouh well, life hasnt been any easier and consequences decided to come back and kick me from behind!

ok so you all know about my lousy attendance n my strong sleeping and my ,ouh well i shall confess , bad habit of prioritising sleep than school right?(fcuk man, in 2020 man wil get 3 hours sleep max n work his anus to bloodmess-n then scientist will say that 2 hours is actually enough for man,wtf!tired laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

ok so anw, now the whole school(teachers and staff-alike) are 'on the hunt' for me(unfortunately, i am NOT worth hunting for) and then some atasan in my school(teacher LA) sae my situation quite bad alrd, till my DHM like take me as one big case alrd. den told me the school can choose to do two, dont give a fuck and just ignore my attidtude n get rid of me subsequently, or help me change. I dont know if it was my brains, or balls , or lack thereof(both?), or was it just sense that came knocking on my braindoor, that told me to choose the latter.

I mean OF COURSE ONE WOULD CHOOSE THE LATER RIIIIGHT?first choice was tempting,except the fina bit about getting rid of me.ok so yea. anw, in my pursuit of being a better person, might as well i get rid of this habit and get the taste of stinking worklife and shit right?afterall, until/unless i get enough to get out of this small labour mighty-intensive of an island, id still be stuck here working my ass off for more than half of my lifespan, right?

So i did, and here i am, trying to make ammendments. so ill be a geek for this last term and ill mug n mug mug(more than now)

but i swear after im done with this, imma party so hard ill break Singapore into two man.
woo power of exageration .

okay so anw, last test next week, integration.part of me says fuck it but hell no its a big test. n its the last, so why fuck it up?
ive got a long break to chill+get ready.

i had alot to say in th eevening but i forgot evrth and now im sleepy too.

so anyway, tomorrow night , man u vs arsenal.
im not sure if cesc is playing, most people say not but some say yes.
he was out during second leg of celtic. and ramsey got injured too.
which leaves diaby,denilson and song for centre mid.
im unsure of how wenger will try to overcome this challenge because the way i see it, a scholescarrick prtnership is a stronger holding+experienced centremid partnership. as you all may know, denilson is the attacking type, imo a very hardworking chap who makes runs everywhere and fights for possession. However, cesc is still vision-king and denilson will not be an immediate replacement. song is to me a defensive/holding midfielder. he would come as very useful in the case wenger decides to play a defensive game(very very rare/unseen but look at the statistics) but will still help win possession in midfield. diaby, well, you know how he is.i think he's good :)

for fun's sake, i think arsenal will look at attacking through the flanks and then cutting in, with players like Arshavin, and Rosicky(back from injury) available. Up front, its not much of a problem and back four hasnt had any problems too with vermaelan doing exceptionally well, setting an example for the back line and somehow 'inspiring' gallas to do better as he has been playing decently or even well so far. Clichy is one of my favopurite backs and i think he is reliable down there and so is sagna.

Almunia sure has to hot on his toes though, since the ever-breaking rooney will obviously be playing and players like nani and valencia supplying crosses.

overall, it hink it will be a great match and im excited to see how wenger decides to overcome this challenge and what formation he will use(the new 433 or the 442). As an Arsenal fan, im predicting a 2-1 win for arsenal but lately, ive been getting a sick gut feeling.but im still confident.
fauzan-2-1 man u
rafik-1-0 arsenal

will be watching the game with the usual guys tomorrow at our usual place.

and fishing sunday morning with my schoolmate, i hope my anyhow fix leader doesnt slip. and if anyone knows, do tell me which spot at CP7 is THE fishing spot.if secret, hola using hp la. ;) would really appreciate it as would be psycho-ing or bring my friend for something new as he has never surfcasted before :)

cheers

ahmad

ouhh and anyone care for an acoustic session?been awhile.

2009-08-22T09:55:00.000-07:00

Arsenal's been doing great im happy/ excited. i cant stand it, i HAVE/AM going to fish tomorrow morning.

:)

but yet next week is gonna be hell.

ahmad

2009-08-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

stupid motherfucking people who put nets. fucking ccb.no wonder i fucking fish for hours not even one fucking fish.fucking die you motherfuckers.

ahmad
sometimes i just feel like shit for all that has passed.

2009-08-11T00:05:00.000-07:00

I remember.

I remember the times when the playground was my world, enormous, huge and rarely too much to handle.
I remember the times when all i wanted was colourful toys of that shelve, and all i had to do was ask, or cry.
I remember the times when school was my playground. Not forgetting my house, the void decks and...anywhere else.
I remember when nothing else besides playing was in my mind.
What i do not remember was how it all went away.

done.

gee. that's childhood for you. no wonder we all want to be children. so carefree. so FREE.

now, the least one has to do is to think.
and mind you thinking is not easy, especially if you have to think about E V E R Y T H I N G.Everything, not only everything you DO. you have to think about your options/choices, and then your decisions and how and where it'll take you and its consequences. Because life is an open book requesting YOU to write your story down.

Somehow, playing never did go away. everyone wants to enjoy. and in the quest of finding enjoyment amidst all the thinking, one gets carried away.

ahmad

2009-08-07T09:20:00.000-07:00

these are the pictures from last week's fishing.just baby baitfish. poor pasir-pasir, i unhooked it but it cudnt swim afterwards, pity sia. shudve just used it as bait.

well, went again just now at bedok jetty, got one good fish and the rest like babybaby also. will update soon.

ahmad

2009-08-05T07:18:00.001-07:00

im sorry if i fuck up,
im having serious morale, confidence problems.serious ones.

ahmad

2009-08-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

you guys out there who talk shit about arsenal, especially Ish, watch out.
be afraid, be afraid. ive seen the preseason games, the buildup in the emirates cup.
and i can show you the latest game against rangers but that sure wouldnt convince you. who's rangers right?
well, ill show you a video of them against atletico madrid. AH Ish, ive seen your aguero, no threat, even in a damn fast team. In CHELSEA?haaaaaaiyoooooooooooooooooo.haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaancuuuuuuuuuuuuuuur.no la not hancur but still, not much lah!

and considering ah , that game first team didnt start. mannone played full, but he played well.vermalean also didnt play. holy shit im so excited i can shit in my pants now! first game, next game everton.considered big game, can.3-0 ah.woooooooooooooooooo.

you better be scared you know. got arshavin, eduardo,rosicky.all come back.and d other usuals. :P

Arsenal v Atletico Madrid 1-8-09
by doodlenose

ahmad

2009-08-02T05:12:00.000-07:00

i couldnt find lyrics for champion and straightforward.nor betrayed or other bands 50 lions.
i wnated to post lyrics on friendship but i couldnt find one.(that i know)
so here it is.
i think this song is epic not only because of its following, or the sounds itself.go read and then decipher.

wake the dead-comeback kid

This is our city of the dead
Another life holds its weary head
We hope, we try, we live, survive
Counting days, trying to get by
Waiting for the calling
Anticipation in the air
We hope and dream of difference
City sleeping, unaware

Break the silence, WAKE THE DEAD
Running through these streets alone
I'll kick and scream, let's break the hold
Cuz I swear, and this won't render useless
I promise you, we've come this far
And I'm not stopping, I'm not stopping now
I'm not hiding in shadows
Wake up, Send out this message, it's clear

You said, you said, you said
this time was gonna be different
WAKE UP THE DEAD
[2x]

Coming alive, something stirs inside
This isn't over yet
Shake off the dirt
Swallow regret
Stop living under the weight
Living under the weight of regret
Your regrets
DON'T LOSE HOPE
Don't let it happen to you
DON'T LOSE HOPE
Which side are you gonna choose?
Cuz I believe, I believe it's in you RISE!

We said, we said, we said
This time was gonna be different
WAKE UP THE DEAD

2009-08-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

hello guys.
been a week.
nothing much to post about so yea i didn't post lorr.further more i was busy.
or not.
didnt go school for three days again.i better stop this shit man.

so nothing really happened during the weekdays,i was at home for most of the time.so weekend!

friday, after prayers and classes and tests retakes, i went to changi to buy my bait. foolishly, i got myselft three packets of sarong worms instead of two. in other words, i bought too much bait.n no lightstick.well, fuck it.
i got back home, ate, bathed, met jali to get some stuff, and he gave me nasi lemak! hahaha
so then i headed down to breaker 14. surprisingly, no one was there.usually there would be people fishing if not bbq-ing.this time not even a soul. my friend warned me the previous week about fishing alone there. somehow, ive never felt or experienced anything there, and its a good spot to fish.so being stubborn, i set up there. LUCKILY, some guy came a few minutes later and set up his stuff. few minutes after he threw his small rod, he caught ahuge bite. as i was refreshing my bait (yes), i watched him pull his luck up. and boy was it fat luck, he caught an unga or is it also known as sweetlips, as long as my forearm. huge catch man. so after that i joined him, and both myself n him had no bites.

so at 1+ we moved to the longkang since the tide was low as hell. he did some catfish canal fishing while i... knocked out. hehs.
he woke me up at 3+ telling me he was going home so i took my stuff, put em beside me, and slept.till 5+, by the beach.HAHA.
woke up, moved somewhere near breaker 3 and started fishing. didnt catch many stuff.just small baby baitfishes. ill post em later maybe because my posting interface(word?) is problematic.ok,

then at 11 i got home, bathed ate etc and went to hmt class.lucky i slept that night. i was very late(15 minutes from closing) so i actualy wasted time going there.but i just went because i had to pass up some essay.

so then i got home.was tired and on the verge of sleeping.but stayed up. felt the temptation of going out. hasif fucked me up so donno where to go also. so i called lim up and asked if he could accompany me chill out at town. apparently he could. met him at 5, wanted to take mrt den his ezlink fuckup(yes the new less then a dollar cnt go in system) so we took 12 since we both had bus concessions. stopped at penin, wanted to go to esplanade but apparently hell lot of people due to ndp preview.so we went to sakura to eat then walked to central and chilled till last 12.

wanted to continue lepak at pasir ris but both of us damn tired so just went home straight. when i was walking home, i smelt some fishy rotten smell.thought maybe it was the smell from the beach ah since very near. then apparently this morning when i got up, my dad told me i had brought something along home.or rather that thing followed me home. coz he described that smell to me being outside the house and after mum nhim talked about it n searched for what they thought was my sarong worms, it went away. and then i told them about how i smelt it last night. HAH.
dope.or not.

i wanna post a video, but again, interface.

2009-07-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

I didnt catch any fish last week.damn.had a bite. reeled in, got stuck in the rocks, gone.i knew i shouldnt have casted there.
But i had fun yesterday.

Ahmad

2009-07-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

ah dang.
my posting page still has issues.
ouh well. no mood sia to post like this. anw, a line i heard while listening to a stale melodrama

"Pleasure till its gone"

ahmad

2009-07-21T08:19:00.001-07:00

wtf.why is the page like this,im having probs with my posting page.

2009-07-16T06:08:00.000-07:00

I NEED FISHIIIIIIIIIIIING!!!

2009-07-14T23:43:00.001-07:00

a little late ahaha. but im inside.at least my botak head is :/ wrong timing lerr
credits to donaldsps

ahmad

2009-07-13T06:32:00.001-07:00

forget,forget.

stay,stay.

random

ahmad

2009-07-12T00:15:00.002-07:00

The forgotten hero and legend, Smokin' Joe.
Ali may be champ, but Frazier was the strongest and bravest.
And Frazier should've won that last match.

and BARCA! FUCK OFF!

ahmad

2009-07-11T20:51:00.000-07:00

hello guys.
went fishing yesterday. had 2dollars, 6dollars then added by dad.
6 dollars spent to repair rod tip plus 2size4sinkers. and the pathetic 2dollars?bought my bait. Ouh well, i couldnt spend the money on drinks. aniway, i reached the changi spot(near SAF ferry terminal) and there were already alot of people there, the spots that were empty were full of low trees, and i cannot cast there, shouldve gone pasir ris park to fish. so aniway i set up and started fishing. at around.....7+ pm, it was already dark, i looked into the distance and the darkness was overwhelming and weird. LOL. at the back of my mind, i knew it was raining. But i was hoping so much that it wouldnt come to my area that i started BELIEVING that it wouldnt. unfortunately it did. but being superbly stubborn, i stayed even when it started to drizzle, telling myself it would only drizzle. but after 3 minutes, rain poured down super heavily. i packed whatever was on the floor and ran under the tree, but it was really heavy so no use doing so. So i quickly reeled in my rods, but ncreuceflehcievcheb my line was crossed by some other guy. i shouted at him asking if it was crossed and he said yar. so i had to run in the rain, but luckily he felt fcuked up and allowed me to just cut his line XD i am so evil. and said sorry too. so then i ran to the toilet for shelter, there i was feeling super fucked up and so i packed my stuff and tried to dry them. after finishing drying and packing, i wanted to leave but it started to rain again. holy. i was damn mad already. ouh i forgot to mention that i had forgotten abut my rod stand and left it at the place where i was. and i waited somemore( my butterfly smoking paper got wet so you imagine!) and then finally the rain turned to drizzle and i left, walking past my spot, and my stand was gone! motherfucking barstards who the fuck .UGGGGGGHHHHHHHH. obviously they know someone had forgotten to take it because he ran for shelter. fucking leave it there ah, stand oso wanna steal. and that's my only rod stand mind you. so now i cant go surfcasting. fuck those fucking barstards. may they rot before they go to hell.muahaahahaha.
so yea you get the idea, i had a bad fishing time yesterday.bleagh.

but yet i still want to go today. but im just lazy to go to changi to get bait then go back to pasir ris to fish.gahh.maybe ill go soccer then swim after that.or something like that.

ahmad

2009-07-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

OUH FUCK i am damn tired.
i woke up late this morning and reached school at 10am as usual. i didnt take pink slips as usual ;)
School called my house/mum's/dad's phone though. a hell lot of times.till they complain to me. ugh why cant school just call me first.It doesnt make sense. ahhhh my prepaid's down anyway.so yea. so people whom i don't reply to suddenly, it's because my prepaid is down.

my homework starting to pour down, especially HMT.fuck. Cikgu just threw a bitch fit i heard just now (twice today) because 1)me n my class mates always never come to school and dont do well for her class and 2)she found out rifqi skipped her three straight classes.HAHAHAHAHA
I may be laughing but if she finds out about me, haaaa i may be said to be done.

I think Ill be going fishing tomorrow before i head home n then head to dzul's house to rewang.i havent had enough of the new rods, but fuck i just remembered i dont have size 4 sinkers, anyone have them can lend me?LOLS wanna go fishing but no money to go buy bait and sinker, aiyah tomorrow can ask for money.

aniway, this song moved me so much i thought of doing a video project in the holidays. Music video.good experience. Ouh well, I love Tamar, and I'm marrying her so you guys out there stay away.She gonna sing to me before i go to sleep every night yaw.

to you

ahmad

2009-07-04T22:59:00.000-07:00

ouhh and I forgot to mention. when you go to a gig, especially a hardcore one, and stand close to the playing stage or also the center of the crowd, expect to be involved in the pit. If not, please fucking stand at the back. It is fucking annoying to have people in the front or center of the crowd and STAYING there even when a pit is formed and then they start giving faces showing their unhapiness. fuck you people. fucking stand at the back then, or go to a seated show or something. especially YOU you FUCKING BOTAKHEAD. you don't scare me.i'm botak too.

ouhh well, some people just don't get it.

ahmad

2009-07-04T09:58:00.001-07:00

Just reached home from break the chains. i mean after bathing ah.
dope shiet man. It's been so long since i've been to a gig.
too bad i missed murdered for revenge.
ouh well,
SEKSAAAAAA!SEKSAAAAA KUBUUUUUUUR!
yeay i love that song!

Yesterday night i spent my whole night out at ecp.
i was fishing.
No fish caught.
ouh well, but at least i got a free 10" rod and a good buy for a surecatch prokat rod(13").
YEAY.now all i ahve to do is settle my debts, then stock up on new items.

alright so now i'm having a dilemma.
either study marathon at yishun tomorrow or stay at home and then go for soccer training.
i mean, i didnt turn up last week, and of course I'd really love to play, but as much as i do, i do not want to fail the upcoming math.its horrible. One, not being able to do the questions feels horrible.Two, getting bad the one-digit results feels bad too. Ive never passed math in my whole secondary school and it sucks cause i feel like an idiot.
dont luff motherfcuker hahahahahaha
i know some of you(like hasif and my sister) wouldve said coz u are, but even if i am(im not sure myself XD), i dont want to be.HAH who wants to aniway?
last year i studied like fuck for my EOYs math till i didnt study for chem and physics but i still failed. barely passed though and thats my only form of motivation.

ouh well.
now i have no idea what to talk about.its okay.byebye

ahmad

2009-07-02T08:28:00.000-07:00

so i guess its a no then .
ouh well.

AM

2009-07-02T04:24:00.000-07:00

okay shit.i just realized that blogger has more fonts available now.
and I've made up my mind, I'm going to poly. i dont know which, but its a poly.
what course?media or design.somewhere along those lines. i don't even mind doing journalism.

I just found out yesterday that business courses have minimal math, and come to think of it, its logical!

thank God for the dunhill yesterday! or else id turn to hulk or something.
and today i received a whole new pack, gonna keep it for fishing.

OUH tomorrow i'll be fishing at ECP. hope can get fish, this time ill be using a 10" rod.so dope.

again, i'm in debt.

I think that the pressure is only coming. Im having loads of homework nowadays ( and idk why but i bother and WANT to finish them) and with very demanding deadlines. so you could safely say that nowadays, ill be touching my books and worksheets every day.

i heard there's already one h1n1 case in school since its opening(SINCE ITS OPENING) and in my sister's school too. i really think they should stop school. i used to want it cos of the usual reasons students want it, but i think now i'm a little scared. i heard it can be quite ... painful with super high fever and stuff like that. that aint fun! and i havent been warded, and dont intend to be(anytime soon at least).

ouhh, and im a fan of tamar, kinagrannis.:)chck out kina's falling slowly.

AM

2009-07-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

Im in love with two.
1)cause we've ended as lovers- jeff beck
2)Mayumi Sada.

check em out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZshJfWzgmok&feature=player_embedded

i think she's pretty.you think?

AM